in my mind.
Father h a d organized this from his sickbed a n d itwas a t r i u m p h of organization, for we could not use the news-papers, or the mails, or the telegraph, or the telephone, or anyof the established printing presses.Nearly seven years of war in China, over four and a half years of war in Europe and Africa, and two years a n d four months of World W.T h e top gear season 18 episode 1 hd burden of thought is oftena hindrance, a n d in the mind where there was once certainty, doubt creeps.Even if she h a d tried to do so, she would probably nothave succeeded.Some mixture of thought and emotion and urges, of which Iwas only dimly conscious, led me to action, and action, in its turn, sent me back to thought and a desire to understand the present.
T h e present hardlyexists, for there is an absence of feeling a n d sensation whichmight separate it from the dead past.
It is a year a n d a q u a r t e r since I finished writing this booka n d some parts of it are already somewhat out of date, and m u c hhas h a p p e.
M a n y ofBritains leading statesmen, who spoke harshly of the fascist Ducein later years when Italy became a belligerent, referred to himtenderly and admiringly in those days, and praised his regimeand methods.
T h a t history is not very old, as I n d i a n history goes, noris it very i m p o r t a n t in the larger scheme of things.
Indeed we a p p e a r to have arrived at a stagein the worlds history when the only alternative to such a union islikely to be the destruction and undoing of both.
She never entirely lost that girlish look, but as she grew into a womanher eyes acquired a depth and a fire, giving the impression of stillpools behind which storms raged.
And for w h e n?T h e diversity and fullness of nature stir meand produce a harmony of the spirit, a n d I can imagine myselffeeling at home in the old Indian or Greek pagan and pantheistic atmosphere, but minus the conception of God or Gods thatwas attached.T h e long chain of history a n d of social develop-ment appeared to h a v e some meaning, some sequence, a n d thef u t u r e lost some of its obscurity.T h e belief that all things are made of a single sub-stance is as old as thought itself; but ours is the generation which, first of all in history, is able to receive the unity of nature, not asa baseless dogma or a hopeless.So long as I did this, history h a d little significance forme.It has beendifficult enough for me to read again what I have written.Perhaps my arrival m a d e a difference, for she wasa little better the next day and for some days after.Through the Arabs, the Mongols we come to the golden time of the Mughal Empire.I often wonder w h a tthey would have done if events h a d taken a different turn, a n dyet there is little reason for conjecture, for they would welcomewith garlands and addresses of welcome whoever happened towield authority.Iwrote originally in long-hand; this was typed after my release.